Done for now

[perceverance]

No car. No bedroom. (i sleep in living room) No social proof.

i think i might not take this partying thing or any picking up women seriously until college. I have come a long way from where i was confidence and socially intelligent-wise but i dont see the point in picking up girls when i still ride in the backseat when ny parents pick me up after school. or the fact that i live in a extremely small apartment in which i sleep in the living room.

once i get to college, hopefully ill get my own place and get a car as well. To be honest, people are so superficial it disgusts me. everyone wants to fight and claw their way into a "cool" social group and i feel like ive gotten past societys rules. my thoughts and values are not influenced by the media or my community.

i have gotten to a point where things go horrible so often that im getting used to it. instead of getting mad, i say fuck it and move on. NO MATTER WHAT IT IS.

i dont even know where this thread is going but id thought id just say something to you guys.

trust me when i say this: if you get past the stupid shit that everyone is following, youll be much better off. at least it worked for me.

[looknlisten]

Haha your almost there and you don't even realize it, I know you feel like your just buying time and I know your waiting to become more independent but you must enjoy now what's within your means, even if its nothing, anger is fuel to your fire but patience is serenity and a balance of the two will get your head right. For me truly iv only seen guys get extremely good at this when they hold their heads in their hands and say "I give up" and just destroy shit. Letting it go is the beginning of a new journey but negativity will not take you through it as well, you need to become more positive when in testing situations then you will receive your blueprint. People liking superficial things is okay, its life but you won't become any better if it gets to you .. Hope that makes sense

[perceverance]

^ that really does make sense to me. i used to think i knew what not giving a shit meant but ive found its true meaning. i actually legitly dont give a shit anymore and i feel like its having a positive effect rather than a negative.

[infamous93]

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