Dubai. I'm here. I need help. And to bitch.

[Rusty]

Alright. First of all, I'm a secret muslim un-convert. I'm ana theist now. My dad happens to be like, second to the pope in religiousness. I live with him now. In a muslim country. Where they kill people like me. Ok fine, just don't tell anyone. My dad keeps getting me to pray and read the fucking muslim book with him and burns of precious hours though, so I'm tempted. But then I'll probably get beheaded or whatever they do here. But ok, that aside. I don't really care, praying gives me time to meditate, gives me time to work on my posture and ummm, something else positive. Gives me time to settle my inner chatter which is really negative right now. Ok, that's three. Ok I guess praying isn't so bad.

Alright, second. My dad. Haven't seen him in 2 years. FUCK IT'S AWKWARD WITH HIM. He's a quality guy. I think. But shit, I don't know him. Then I'm supposed to move here and everythings ok? I guess. I guess it's better like that anyway. But fuck, he brings out the negative bitch in me. I gotta let everything I learnt take over and keep the best self out there. I never feel like being an alpha around him, I just wanna make everything terrible. I guess I'm just fucking pissed off at him. I gotta find a way around this, obsticles don't block the way, the are the way. Hope that works in life as well as it does on paper.

I've been feeling like a shithead ever since I got here. I hooked up with this great chick last night just before I left, omg, it was a storybook moment. And fuck she was cool. I'll post a field report or something later to brag and lift myself out of this fucking ditch. So guys, how am I going to turn this around, I'm just on a negative warpath, I'm not applying anything I learnt. I know I'm better then this, what do I do?

P.S. They won't really kill me if I convert right? I heard in saudi arabia they do, and they're our neighbours and it seems like dubai and SA are like, BFFLS.

[Grape]

The point of life is to survive. Not to have great beliefs.
Do whatever it takes to SURVIVE.

[secret]

i like the point bout going out, but i did a report on Dubai last year, the ratio of guys to girls is like 4 or 5 to 1 so atleast this will step up ur game cause ur competing with 4 or 5 other guys to get the girl xD on a high note, prayer is good give u time to think relax and figure out wat u r doing, especially time to reflect on wat happened that day and wats yo come

[Rusty]

Lol hahaha, 4 to 1? Jesus. Sounds interesting. It's alright, I got a game plan now. Fuck my dad, he's a tool. Whatever. There are alot more people in dubai then my dad. I'm gonna need to get back in my groove, I can do this. I think all I need is a chick. School starts in like 3 days or something, they'll be chicks there.

[SamethP]

awwww, no wonder you didnt return my text *cries*
does the emailing work o.O
we gotta get these journals up and running
nothing like robocop to get you in a good mood
haha

[Grape]

lol.
"Hi, I'm Rusty and I'm an atheist."

[SamethP]

*points gun* "say that again"