Post by jmac on Sept 6, 2011 22:23:44 GMT -5
I remember seeing this quote once. I don't remember where or when, maybe on here, maybe on some page of inspirational quotes. It is so true though, because you shouldn't pretend to be someone you aren't. I know I haven't been on here, I haven't read any of the recent posts, and I don't know if I plan on ever coming back after this thread. But I have been going through crazy feelings and emotions lately and decided to come on and write this.
Someone said something to me today about "I can look back and it feels like two seconds ago we were in spanish class freshman year." And going through all I am in life I realized how the old me transformed to the new me. No, not the guy who has as many friends as he need. Not the guy who can now get girls. The new me is the guy who has gone from the "nicest kid I've ever met" to "wow you can be such a fucking asshole." The new me is the guy who went from thinking "wow she makes me happier than anyone else, she's the only one i want." to "wow, that bitch is fine as hell. I'll start talking to her and then we will see how many girls I hook up with till she finds out and gets hurt." The new me is the kid in school who doesn't give a shit, gone from a straight A student to struggling for a 3.0 average which i dont know how the hell i managed.
I've let friends change who I am, and now that I transferred back to my old school I've come to a PATHETIC REALIZATION. Looking around my school all I see is fuck ups and scumbags. Ya, they are my friends. And luckily I am not one yet, but I'm struggling to stay on the right path. But ever since I stepped into that building as a freshman I just started taking the easy road. I finally took myself and put in some effort at the other school Junior year. Then, when i realized id still have to work senior year I listened to my old friends "come back, we miss you." "we will have so much fun this year, come graduate with your real friends." and I gave in.
Everyday my "best friend" gives me a hard time about how I quit smoking weed. I feel bad for anyone who is "nerdy" because this school is all about the top dog, and I see to many kids getting shit on. At my last school, everyone was so close. Ya, it was a lot of work at times, but what about the days where we got it easy? Hanging in the hallways having fun, we weren't shitting on "nerds", fuck I was friends with lots of kids that at my old school woulda been considered "nerds". And all I hear now is "how could you manage to stay at a school with all those faggots. They are all a bunch of pussies."
I know it seems like I am just talking about myself and not really telling you anything, but I am. I want all you guys to realize that it's your life. And no I am not quoting a cliche, it really is YOUR life. Don't let friends persuade you into becoming someone you aren't. Don't go online and read an article and think "damn look, hes got the girls, and hes a dick! Maybe I should change and be more like him." No, you are yourself, don't worry about if you should hug her or wave when you greet her. Don't worry about "i cant listen to that music, ill look gay." Be yourself. Don't fall into peer pressure and fuck up. If you have "friends" trying to make you lesser of a person and giving you shit about doing things you don't want to do or just being assholes. Guess what, they aren't real friends.
Strive for self-improvement. You are your only cheerleader, nobody is going to be able to make you better. And your head will give you the easy way out, mine did. And I am regretting it. For once, yes, I am not being the cocky fuck. DON'T BE LIKE ME. Because if I could go back, I'd be that nice kid, I realized I don't have to be a dick to get a girl. And now it's probably too late for me to switch back schools. But I am honestly considering it, because I want to be the best I can be. I want to look back 10 years from now and think "damn, I had guts, I wasn't afraid to stand up for what I wanted." Please, live YOUR life. Do yourself a favor, you won't regret it.
Someone said something to me today about "I can look back and it feels like two seconds ago we were in spanish class freshman year." And going through all I am in life I realized how the old me transformed to the new me. No, not the guy who has as many friends as he need. Not the guy who can now get girls. The new me is the guy who has gone from the "nicest kid I've ever met" to "wow you can be such a fucking asshole." The new me is the guy who went from thinking "wow she makes me happier than anyone else, she's the only one i want." to "wow, that bitch is fine as hell. I'll start talking to her and then we will see how many girls I hook up with till she finds out and gets hurt." The new me is the kid in school who doesn't give a shit, gone from a straight A student to struggling for a 3.0 average which i dont know how the hell i managed.
I've let friends change who I am, and now that I transferred back to my old school I've come to a PATHETIC REALIZATION. Looking around my school all I see is fuck ups and scumbags. Ya, they are my friends. And luckily I am not one yet, but I'm struggling to stay on the right path. But ever since I stepped into that building as a freshman I just started taking the easy road. I finally took myself and put in some effort at the other school Junior year. Then, when i realized id still have to work senior year I listened to my old friends "come back, we miss you." "we will have so much fun this year, come graduate with your real friends." and I gave in.
Everyday my "best friend" gives me a hard time about how I quit smoking weed. I feel bad for anyone who is "nerdy" because this school is all about the top dog, and I see to many kids getting shit on. At my last school, everyone was so close. Ya, it was a lot of work at times, but what about the days where we got it easy? Hanging in the hallways having fun, we weren't shitting on "nerds", fuck I was friends with lots of kids that at my old school woulda been considered "nerds". And all I hear now is "how could you manage to stay at a school with all those faggots. They are all a bunch of pussies."
I know it seems like I am just talking about myself and not really telling you anything, but I am. I want all you guys to realize that it's your life. And no I am not quoting a cliche, it really is YOUR life. Don't let friends persuade you into becoming someone you aren't. Don't go online and read an article and think "damn look, hes got the girls, and hes a dick! Maybe I should change and be more like him." No, you are yourself, don't worry about if you should hug her or wave when you greet her. Don't worry about "i cant listen to that music, ill look gay." Be yourself. Don't fall into peer pressure and fuck up. If you have "friends" trying to make you lesser of a person and giving you shit about doing things you don't want to do or just being assholes. Guess what, they aren't real friends.
Strive for self-improvement. You are your only cheerleader, nobody is going to be able to make you better. And your head will give you the easy way out, mine did. And I am regretting it. For once, yes, I am not being the cocky fuck. DON'T BE LIKE ME. Because if I could go back, I'd be that nice kid, I realized I don't have to be a dick to get a girl. And now it's probably too late for me to switch back schools. But I am honestly considering it, because I want to be the best I can be. I want to look back 10 years from now and think "damn, I had guts, I wasn't afraid to stand up for what I wanted." Please, live YOUR life. Do yourself a favor, you won't regret it.
