Depression

[timmywimmy]

Hey guys about 2 years ago i felt really depressed. Out of the blue out of nowhere this is when my social life sucked i sucked at sports i had no friends i figured i had a reason to be depressed It was on and off so i had some good days and then some bad days but still it was lingering and just made my life suck

Last year Still on and off but getting worse. More and more i found myself just wanting to do nothing and i figured "its because your a loser" so i found this forum and slowly my social life improved yet i was still feeling down but i figured it would be over soon


Yet here we are today. I have an awesome life (IMO) i have good grade plenty of friends Damn fucking good at hockey and confident in everything. Yet i still have this feeling. Some days i just feel awful others i feel great. Yet still it is slowly getting worse over the last few days even a tad suicidal

I just really don't know how to talk to anyone. I have one friend who knows about it but again she really doesn't know what to say. I've tried to talk to my guy friends about it but they just find it weird and see it as a weakness. My family has no ideas

I want to get help weather it be from friends family or even a doctor (or whatever they are called that deals with this) Yet i dont know how. How do you walk up to your dad look him in the eye and say ive been on and off depressed for the past 2 years when everyone thinks youve been having a great time for the past 6 months. I just can't bring myself to do it. I'm scared if i open up someone will see it as a weakness. I'm worried about rumors starting that im attention seeking (it happened when it got around in grade 8) and mostly im scared to tell my parents because i simpily have no idea how to tell them "Ive been depressed for the past few years see no future for me most days am losing all my drive and ambition and lately have been thinking about taking my life." How can you do that... it's just impossible somebody please give me advice im terrified right now

[Adam]

Sounds like my EXACT story.Even the time frames fit I tried anti-deppressants from my doctor but those only made me feel like shit. Currently What is helping me is finding passions such as dance and sports.

[DanZy]

Dude my dad is psychiatrist so I have a fairly decent knowledge of this sorta thing. To be honest, you need to go see a doctor if you're having suicidal thoughts. Go to your GP, ask to be referred to a psychiatrist and go see him. Only person who should prescribe you any drugs at all should be your psychiatrist, not your GP

[jbold]

I've felt the same way before too,i just remember "fuck it lifes too short to be depressed about anything" and also if you have a normal life (no dead/sick family, personal problems, etc) just remember that it could be 20x harder with real and serious problems other than not having friends.

I wouldnt advise doing any kind of drugs to supress this (be it illegal or over the counter) they just mask the feelings for a short time.

Just work through it, no one can ever feel happy without being sad sometimes.

[deuce]

Hey man I also went through the same thing. I went to a psychologist and I found out that I have bipolar disorder. It's where your mood changes up and down abnormally to the point where it can interfere with your normal social life. Look for the symptoms and see if you've experienced them. There should also be some pretty accurate online tests if you google them too. Luckily with good treatment like healthy exercise, good sleeping schedules, and a watchful diet I've minimized the effects so that I'm rarely affected. But yea I know what you mean, sometimes you just feel like shit for no reason. Definitely go ahead and go do some reseach online before you make any big committment like telling your parents or seeing a psychologist though.

[Adam]

It may also be the weather. If it is constantly overcast where you live this time of year it may be seasonal depression. Id suggest vitamin D pills or something

[amarok]

I wholeheartedly agree with Danzy. It really is great that you feel you can come to us, but we're just guys like you. Go see a psychiatrist and talk to him/her. Maybe even bring up seasonal depression like Adam said. But go see one, nip this in the bud.

[Sloth]

i had depression for a year in highschool because of so so much different shit that was going on.
In the end my family had an intervention.
I've looked my dad in the eye and told him my dick needed to be looked at by a doctor (thats right, iv had my share of problems fellas )
it was really fucking hard but he was so there for me, because every father wants to make sure their son is ok, so DO NOT BE EMBARASSED. He would probably want to hit himself if he knew his own son was embarassed to tell his father that he was depressed, and if you took your own life without talking to him about your problems he'd probably take his life too

if you really cant tell him, then send him a long text, and just get it all out in the open, then you're forced to deal with it.

tell your dad, i know its really fucking hard to even think about it, but once you do it's such a relief. Get yourself sorted lad.

[fullbang]

afterall i see that most on us on this fourm share the same thing: depression.
this shit is fucking me for most of my life, i didnt realized this, mostly beacuse its hard to addmit to yourself that you have depression disorder.
Every advancement i made, had soon vaporized into nothing. I dont even know how to fight it, if i even could, i think my brain consider it normal state. The only light i see to fix that is to change myself to the core. Maybe this is the hardest change in my life...but i found this book called Healing codes. When i first did it, man, it was incredible day, but soon depression settled down again.

Anyway, did any of you guys tried this book and have some success??

[theo]

I've had this myself, but never thought anyone on this forum would have
It's been mostly within the last year, my dad moved out and I had a difficult breakup and now I have serious bouts of feeling detatched from everyone else and sometimes its more severe than other times. I've got plenty of friends and a girlfriend but very few that are close and trusted enough to talk to. I've been cutting down weed smoking cause I've heard it can make it worse and after reading this thread I've decided I might look into talking to someone... Hope it gets better for you OP

[harrymark]

Everyone occasionally feels blue or sad. But these feelings are usually short-lived and pass within a couple of days. When you have depression, it interferes with daily life and causes pain for both you and those who care about you. Depression is a common but serious illness.