Post by swatt on Dec 12, 2014 12:29:45 GMT -5
Hey yall
Since i began middle school I have had a hard time showing others that I care about them. Along with this I have also convinced myself that I don't care about others. I never think about texting my guy friends or girl friends just to see how they are doing. I want this to change. I have a girlfriend who I care about, and a girl friend that I care about, but I never text anybody's else just to talk. In person when I talk to people (which is more important than texting, I understand that).
For more context, I might as well talk about what happened in middle school. I was friends with my childhood friends at the time. The start of seventh grade, everybody started to try and be the coolest kid (which in their mind consisted of putting others down). My friends started to make fun of me for who I was, what I did, that kinda stuff. It was horrible and I just stayed with them and took all of the emotional beatings. After that period, I never trusted my friends and slowly started to invest less and less emotionally. Highschool was bad because it basically gave them a reason to ditch me. I moped around a lot freshman year. Now I am a junior, back hanging out with my old friends (and some new ones). I know that they like me and like my presence around them. By the way I have completely forgiven them for how they treated me. Anyways I'm just trying to get some advice on how I can invest emotionally and show that I invest emotionally in them. I am completely willing to make myself vulnerable too. I'm okay with some pain here and there.
Some of yall might say there is nothing wrong with it, but it feels wrong inside me so I want to change it.
Since i began middle school I have had a hard time showing others that I care about them. Along with this I have also convinced myself that I don't care about others. I never think about texting my guy friends or girl friends just to see how they are doing. I want this to change. I have a girlfriend who I care about, and a girl friend that I care about, but I never text anybody's else just to talk. In person when I talk to people (which is more important than texting, I understand that).
For more context, I might as well talk about what happened in middle school. I was friends with my childhood friends at the time. The start of seventh grade, everybody started to try and be the coolest kid (which in their mind consisted of putting others down). My friends started to make fun of me for who I was, what I did, that kinda stuff. It was horrible and I just stayed with them and took all of the emotional beatings. After that period, I never trusted my friends and slowly started to invest less and less emotionally. Highschool was bad because it basically gave them a reason to ditch me. I moped around a lot freshman year. Now I am a junior, back hanging out with my old friends (and some new ones). I know that they like me and like my presence around them. By the way I have completely forgiven them for how they treated me. Anyways I'm just trying to get some advice on how I can invest emotionally and show that I invest emotionally in them. I am completely willing to make myself vulnerable too. I'm okay with some pain here and there.
Some of yall might say there is nothing wrong with it, but it feels wrong inside me so I want to change it.
